When the flashbacks came haunting my breath would hitch in my throat, tears would be streaming from my eyes and everything would go blurry
I'd have nightmares they weren't actually in the night they'd visit me when they wanted irrespective of day or night leaving me vulnerable.
It had occupied my mind and i'd just zone out of conversations, out of reality. It'd hit me even when i had a hundred people on my side. I didn't knew why
My haunting past. It was over but it wasn't just staying behind, it was following me to my present. When I stuttered to speak .When i couldn't go out in the sun. When i couldn't face my reflection in the mirror, it had me in its grip.
I couldn't tell anybody because i thought i was the only one but little did i knew that when that girl on the bus had her eyes downcast she might be going through the same pain i go through or that silent boy in my class who stuttered had been experiencing the same or even that old estranged friend who disappeared was going through the same.
That moment some thoughts flooded my mind... They aren't screaming out loud what they're going through nor i am but we have our issues. I'm not the only one. They all have their wounds and wounds are healed by being left untouched. The more you touch them the corruption spread. Give them tender care once in a while & lots of time. 🌹 -Soha Ali .
We are so caught up in our everyday's routines that we hardly notice that every day of the week its a beautiful chance to start over again.
Mondays are the perfect example for that. We hate it but without it we wouldnt be able to taste the sweet flavour of the weekend.
Remember, it doesn't matter how much you think things have no solution.
You can always start again.
Guess what was I thinking at that moment?
4. 👠 .
How was your weekend? Anything interesting happened?
Привіт. Я вже зовсім засинала, і пригадала, що ще вам привіт не сказала! От тепер можна йти спати 😴 Напишіть, як пройшли вихідні? Щось цікавеньке трапилось?
Хотіла запевнитись, що ви знаєте, що я відкрита до запитань, а ще маю багато порад щодо переїзду, планування подорожей і т.д. Пишіть мені, я з радістю відповім, бо сама через багато чого пройшла.
Imperfectly perfect. .
Lately I have been feeling a lot. I don't really know exactly how but it has been incredibly hard for me. Somehow lost, anxious,okay,not okay. I DON'T KNOW. But I know that this is just a piece from that puzzle. And it is totally FINE. .
This is really something so new for me because I have always been a person who has had control over my thoughts and mind(at least I think so) and I have always intended to think positively. Always. Nothing has changed except that this phase is different. Different thoughts emerged. Different feelings. It's difficult but interesting. Intriguing. Because it will make me grow. But it is really strange. It's when I do something,I seem to catch my mind wandering. Without my approval. I observe and I am amazed. It is amazing how much your mind can be your own enemy or your best friend. Honestly,I am dealing with it quite some time and it's fearful. It's like my heart is pounding very fast most of the time. It makes me cry sometimes but I release it. I let it be. And I let it go. I don't want to force anything since I know that eventually it ALL works out for me.
This is making me grow and I love it. I will take advantage of it and make something amazing out of it. Because I am the master of my life. Because I can sit and breathe even if it's necessary during THE WHOLE DAY,in order to feel better. Breathing helps me the most. Crying too. I release everything. .
I choose to see the perfection in this imperfection. It's challenging and scary but I am stronger and brave enough to switch it to LOVE. ❤ over fear. Faith throughout this journey. Closing my eyes and breathing. It heals me one moment at a time.
I wish you a blissful day. ✨