A dark crimson rose 🥀 to symbolize grief and sorrow. Today’s post is going to be hella emotional so I am sorry.... I just wanted to post it so if I don’t post here for a while or I don’t log into my gaming systems for a while you might have an idea as to why.... today I am having a very hard time emotionally.... I thought it would be easy but I am always wrong when I expect it to be.... because coming home to be alone and knowing that it will be that way hurts when you are so use to somebody being with you.... and coming to terms with the fact that no fucks are given and you were unwanted anyways is always hard no matter how hard you tried for them or how much shit you took and forgiven out of dumb love.... and I keep zoning in on the good things... the good memories which makes it hurt more... and I have no idea how to keep from getting into my emotions or memories or pain... whether I should drink myself into a stupor or rebound hardcore.... I always wonder if it is me? Am I the problem? Why is it that I am the best woman possible and keep getting hurt? And it hurts knowing that holidays will be very lonely... because his family was the only family you had here... 💔
Expect a spam of this and full outfits for the next few days, there’s lots of photos to get through.
I had such a blast tonight and such a lovely send off to an incredible 3 years of university. Just graduation in July to go and then I’m out in the real world... beware... 😈
I Just Want To Make It Clear That I Only Get Pretty When I Feel Like It. So When You See a New Picture It’s Cuz I Was Feeling Myself. So I’m Sorry If I Look Like a Troll When You See Me In The Streets. #nofucksgiven#itiswhatitis#makeuplover